Many Things to be Thankful For

Two years ago today, I was sitting in a hospital waiting room waiting for Mom to come out of surgery. She was having a cancerous tumor removed from her breast. This was easily the scariest day of my life. As I sat there with my family, a million questions were going through my head. A million worries. 
Making it through that awful day (and the two scary years that followed), I’m here to say that there is much to be thankful for. With Thanksgiving upon us, I thought I’d share just a few of the many things I’m thankful for this year (in no particular order). Some serious, some not-so-serious, but all things I deeply appreciate.
1. My family. Sure, this usually makes the top of most lists, but reflecting on where we were two years ago, this makes it with more meaning than ever for me. We’ve been through a lot, but we’ve made it through with laughter. We have fun together and we keep each other strong. 

2. Cory. Okay, so he falls under the “family” category, but I think he also needs a category of his own. It’s no secret that I’m crazy about this guy. He makes my life better. He makes it complete. 

3. Bare Escentuals makeup. I can wake up looking like yesterday’s meat, and this miracle powder will leave my face looking a’ight. It’s a miracle, I tell ya! ;)

4. My car. Aren’t automobiles awesome?! They take us where we need to go. They offer a safe place to sing at the top of our lungs. And they reflect our unique styles and personalities. It may come across as shallow to be thankful for things like makeup and cars, but these are things I use everyday. Things I appreciate everyday. And while I know there are things far more important in life, I’m sure grateful for the little things as well.

5. My camera. Wow! I honestly can’t imagine a world without cameras. They’re memory preservers. As one who has serious memory issues (thanks a lot, immune system), I place a huge amount of value on the snapshots I have of moments past. 

6. Friends. My extended family, my friends make my life richer. They bring different perspectives into my world. They offer support. They’re always a phone call or a text away. They bring much laughter and light into my life. If my life looked like a patchwork quilt, they’d each represent a unique pattern. A beautiful thread combination. A spot of warmth. 

7. Good doctors. I’ve had my share of bad docs, which makes me all the more grateful for the good ones. The ones who see patterns where others missed them. Docs who take the time to listen. Docs who actually care about you and want to help improve your quality of life. 

8. Facebook. Many of the aforementioned items on my list can be found in this one gigantic book o’ faces. In one stop, I can find out some of the latest news and happenings going on in the life of my friends and family, I can meet and connect with new friends, and I can offer and find support. It really is quite marvelous!

9. My job. When I grow up, I want to play with paper... Sure, this sounds like something a cute little kid might say, but it doesn’t sound like a reality. I’m so lucky it has become mine. My job offers me the opportunity to create on an almost daily basis, whether I’m creating articles, visuals for those articles, or new products and ideas. It takes me to new areas of the country. This year alone, I visited Portland, Anaheim, St. Louis, Buffalo, Charlotte, Chicago, Seattle, NYC, and Denver. Awesome! But, more important than any task or trip, my job has brought literally 100s of wonderful people into my life. Some of these beautiful friends are across the aisle from me on a daily basis and others are across the world, but they’re all beautiful additions to my life. 

10. Airport screening. Okay, this is a little joke. As you can see from #9, I travel on a pretty regular basis. And while I’m not exactly a fan of airport screening, I sure do value the added comfort and peace of mind it offers. Am I fan of prying eyes viewing my bits behind a computer screen? No way! Would I rather that than be on a plane with Mr. Underwear Bomber? You bet! For that I say, Thank you, TSA!

11. You. I appreciate you taking the time to read this odd gratitude grouping. I wish you and yours much love, happiness, and joy today and always! 


It's a brand new day...

Oh my word. It’s been far too long since I’ve updated my blog. I’ve missed you, my little e-friend.

As I’m sure you know by my last post (the one written over three months ago), I’ve been in a bit of a funk lately, which has taken its toll on my creative endeavors (blog posts, crafts, etc.). While I’m still sad, I’m happy to report that my creative mojo is slowly creeping back into action.

One of my cute friends texted me every day for weeks following my miscarriage, telling me that things wouldn't always feel as bad as they did. And while I couldn't imagine that at the time, I'm slowly starting to realize that what she said is true. Things are going to be okay. Cory and I are going to be okay. We'll always love that little baby we lost, and a day won't go by that we won't think of it, but we'll be okay. All is not lost.

And how is this for cool? When I opened my blog to begin writing again, I also opened my Pandora account (an online music site), and the first song to play was "Brand New Day," by Joshua Radin. If you aren't familiar with the song, the chorus goes like this:

It's a brand new day.

The sun is shining.

It's a brand new day.

For the first time

In such a long time,

I know

I'll be okay.

Pretty fitting, considering I'm *gulp* blogging again. :)

Now, onto the main thing I want to say with this post, which is THANK YOU!

Your outpouring of support following my miscarriage was more than I ever expected or could even have imagined. I was beyond moved by your kind words, the numerous prayers offered, and the way you were so willing to share some of your own experiences with me. While it pains me that so many of you know this sadness, I also found your stories comforting. They tell me that I’m not alone. That I didn’t do something wrong. That I’m not a screw up. I needed that reassurance, and I thank you for so openly offering it, both here and on my Facebook page.

It's a brand new day because there are people in this world who care for others, even perfect strangers, in their times of need. Thank you. You've helped my entire family more than you'll ever know. The sun truly is shining, and I know I'll be okay.